Where'd I Go?

Yes indeed, where did I go? At least I'm still updating more than Mr. Treotastic.

So I was actually swept away into this magical world the last week. It took me about a week to finish that dang Harry Potter book. It's funny actually because I thought I read a spoiler by accident. It was on some deal site. I read it, and couldn't believe someone would post that up. I mean, if it was really true, it would have made for a crazy twist that no one would have expected.

No spoilers here, but I'm just going say the book was fun. You can see where a lot of influence play a part, bigger theme sort of stuff and what not. I highly recommend it for anyone remotely interested in Harry Potter or fantasy books. If anything, read it just to finish it off.

Also ended up watching that Simpson's movie. Disappointing, but not terrible. Not worth the price of admission.

So recently I've been thinking about relationships and being intertwined. My conclusion is that somethings shouldn't be. It makes it harder and troublesome if in the end it doesn't work out. And yes, I'm speaking from experience.

With that said, I liked having intertwined friends. I went out with some guys this past Friday. Moon was suppose to come along too, but then she found out it was only guys so decided not too. I remember thinking to myself she would have had fun, I just got the feeling the dynamics would have worked. Maybe next time. Even still, I think they will always be my friends, and not really hers.

This got me thinking about my previous situation with Katherine. To be honest, one of the things I miss was hanging out with her, Jin, & Mary. I remember when I told them about what happened, I think Jin took it pretty hard actually. I guess with intertwined friends, breaking up isn't just about two people. In a sense, when it all happened Katherine broke up with more than just me. I wonder if she looks at it that way.

Why do I revisit this event? I feel sad for all parties involved. We all move on, but I think not everyone gets the closure they want. I know I had to chase after it and pry it out, but what about Jin & Mary. Maybe it doesn't matter to them, this concept of closure. I never asked. But something inside must be wondering.

I guess this train of thought was brought on by my mom coming back. I never talked to her about what happened, and I never really wanted to. But I just always wanted to hear her opinion on it all. I guess she told my dad to talk to me instead. Regardless, I finally got it out of her.

People are complex I think. That dreaded word complicated comes around. But it's true. I was walking around Stanford with Moon after dinner and remember being a kid on the University of Texas campus. My dad, my parents, have had an interesting life. All those events play a part in how they think, who they are. But I'll never really know, really understand who my parents are.

Will it be the same if and when I have kids? There is going to be a huge part of my life that is long forgotten or stored in the remote areas of my brain, not to be forgotten, but just not recalled. I will probably never tell them the chocolate milk story or what it even mattered. Will I even tell them about that first conversation outside the pub in Santana Row?