Comprise.

We are all comprised of events in our past that shapes up.

I've been thinking recently about being the nice guy. I used to detest that lot in life. Why do I have to be the nice guy? As much as I tried to break that mold, I think it will always be me. I always try and be nice, be politically correct or what not. I think I missed something though.

Does nice have to equate to boring? If so, I don't want to be that guy. But the more I think about it, the less I think the equality has to exist. Boring people can be mean too. I've met quite a few. Nice is not a subset of boring. So, accept myself as the nice guy but do not resign to a boring fate. That's my plan.

So some kids from church are going on a mission trip soon. Has it been a year already since the last trip? Time really does fly. I remember seeing those guys off last year. I guess time really crept up on me these days. Can you believe it's June already?

Boy has it felt like June the last few days.

It's a surreal feeling to think about how different I envisioned my life this time last year. It's refreshing to think that God always has a plan, somewhere down there even when we can't find it. I'm not even sure I know what the plan is. But I'm pretty excited to see where it will go.

Since I've hung my life on my sleeve so much this past year, I might as well come out and say this. This coming Sunday would have been my wedding day. I know, I sound like such a girl. I only bring this up as a reminder of how funny life is. I actually talked to her online the other day, and we both came to this same realization.

There was no what ifs in that conversation. I don't want to go back, I'm pretty sure she doesn't want to go back. I guess it was more of an acknowledging of where we had been at one point in time. Things are different now, and there is no looking back.

It was odd, I felt happy for her relationship for the first time. I genuinely hope her happiness can be found in this guy. Oddly enough I also thought about her dad. He was quite a character, and sometimes I miss the tension involved with interacting on that level. The dynamic of meeting the dad of someone you are dating.

It'll be interesting when I meet Moon's father. Nervousness becomes me.

So this is quite a long entry. But it's something that I don't let out often. I don't want people to get the wrong idea. I realize that happens a lot. People have no idea what's going on and just make assumptions about what they half see or half hear. So people don't make assumptions please.

In other news, I finally got around to going to Pepper Lunch. I have to say, I liked it. It only took me many months to get around to going. I will have to go again.