09 March 2007

I'm Not Okay.

I'm not saying that. But it's the title of a My Chemical Romance song.

I think I am a fake. I have this exterior that I show to everyone. I try and present myself as this pillar of strength. I mean, I want to be that. I want to be someone that you can depend on. I want to be strong.

I think I will ever appear that person on the outside. By nature I am very stoic and understated it. If I have problems, you will never know. I hide all that inside, if it even exists.

So maybe this song vibes with me. Things I'll never say.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

being a pillar is admirable as long as it doesn't prevent you from opening yourself and accepting if something needs to be fixed; we've all got things we need to work on but until we acknowledge there is something we need or something needs to be changed, then you'll end up drowning in all your hidden feelings; i know what you mean though, i never want to show weakness

Mandy said...

hello

Anonymous said...

you're stronger than you give yourself credit for..but most of all, be okay with who you are. Life's hard enough without having to worry about being someone you're not.