Life.

I read something today, and it was quite profound. It described getting old as a process of loss. Our whole lives we struggle so hard to gain things. Job, house, car, social status, independence, friends, and what not. But as we grow older, we start to lose things. I'm not saying I'm growing old, but I know eventually I will. Everyone does. Just something to think about.

Imagine Job. He didn't even have to grow old for it to happen.

What do you think it must have been like to be a pre dot com bust bajillionaire, but decided not to cash out? I mean, imagine holding all these stock options that are worth so much, and then the next thing you know they are worthless. I don't want to stereotype, but I think a lot of the people that held onto their options so long were just greedy. They wanted more. Granted, there were people who just never considered exercising their options. People that believe in the long haul.

But imagine if you missed out on early retirement because you were just too greedy. How would you feel?

So I still don't have a job, again. But it's ok. Even if, after my huge struggle to get a job, I end up working some crappy low income job with no potential for growth, I will still be ok. I have so much to be thankful for in my life, even sans job.

But to be honest, it is hard to lose focus on that. Katherine used to seriously yell at me when I would complain. And she was right. I have nothing to complain about.

Enough of semi meloncholy banter. I have this weird fascination with square SUV type things. The Land Rover Discovery, Land Rover Defender, Honda Element, and now it's the Toyota FJ Cruiser. I don't like the Range Rover though. It's weird. I know I will probably never get one, even if I had the means. But I just imagine it being so fun to drive it anywhere. Well, not the Honda. That thing doesn't look like it could get over very rough surfaces.

I would say 2004 to 2007 has been a pretty active automotive era. A lot of new designs coming through. It's odd, these guys tend to be less daring. They usually stick to the same things, but I guess things are different now. It's rare the concepts make it all the way through. What gives.