There is no spoon.

The title has nothing to do with the entry. I just couldn't think of a phrase that would sum up what I'm feeling at the moment. I really think the bulk of my growth as a person has occured in the last year and a half or so. It kind of seems like everything was just kind of going along and then it kind of speeds up.

Even more so, if I look at the last year and a half I feel like the last month has really tried me as a person. I think a lot of it is just realizing that there are things to be done, and I learn more about myself in the way I approach these things. I've learned that I can be pretty selfish when I think I have a lot going on in my life. That is definately something to work on. I've also been forced to a lot of introspective looking during this recruiting process. It's made me realize I value enjoyment more than money, but that I also enjoy hard work where I will be challenged.

I think the most important thing I've learned about recently is this concept of growth. I'm really nervous about recruiting. I feel like I am not qualified, and I'm probably not. But at the same time, I'm beginning to realize that this is all part of learning. There is a particular job I'm hoping for, I feel that it fits what I want to do and what kind of enviornment I want to be in. But I feel like school hasn't prepared me to do the things this job asks me to do. But I look forward to learning how.

It's been kind of weird, but as time goes by I'm more amazed by my dad. I hardly ever see him. And when I do, I don't feel so amazed. But I ran into someone that talked about him the other day. It's like he makes an impact on people's lives. And when I went to visit him over spring break, there was one of his employees that told me he looks up to my dad because my dad pushes him to think differently about situations. That same week, my dad said to me that life is about experiences. Obvious right? But I've seriously felt it, not just thought it, this past month. Profound.