Only Blog When You're Drunk.

So I tend to blog when I'm drunk or at least have had a few.

So tonight this bomb totally got dropped in my lap that I don't know how to deal with. Before I can explain, I have to explain a little about my work, more than I usually do.

Officially I lie somewhere between a director or VP position. Honestly I'm more like between a manager or director position in my opinion. Bit pretty much the most important thing to understand is that there is no one between me and a CEO level unless you include finance.

The severity of the situation didn't really hit me until tonight. Maybe I was being naive or just not thinking about it, but at the end of the day I am responsible for the frakkin' business. While a CEO is ultimately responsible, that is normally passed down and in this case I'm next in line.

I actually enjoy pressure a lot and trove on it, but has historically been when only my arse is in the line. I today realized I'm accountable for not just all the people that work for me, but all the people who rely on the future financial feasibility of the company.

How can I be accountable for that?

But being me, the real question is what should my next course of action be? What can I do or how should I proceed given this payload now on my lap?

Can't I just be a kid again?