Musings I Guess.

So I don't know who still reads this, but I guess this is kind of a rather personal entry. Recently I've had some issues in home life. Without getting into a whole lot of detail, it's led me to do some research and think about some things. I'm just writing a few of them down along with some reflection notes so I don't forget.

"In the heart and mind of God, the happiness of the wife is a foundational priority of the marriage."

This seems like some obvious sentiment that everyone should know, but I think it's often lost (especially for me) in a lot of gibberish which husbands think is happiness. And maybe this isn't true to every case, but happiness isn't cornerstoned by financial security. While I have no doubt financial security will aid in happiness, I imagine there are a lot more people who would call themselves miserable if their emotional needs weren't being met compared to financial needs.

What's personal to me about this situation is I always justify my working late because I have to work to hard to support us financially. I think that's a lie. I don't know that I've come to grips with it at a conversational level, but I think it is my subconscious ego/drive which dictates this. Every other excuse I'm giving it just trying to cover this up.

The other thing is it's not just the physical/actual time spent working, but I will also end up working at home. All this adds up to emotional/mental resources which are allocated to something else.

To be honest, even now I'm tempted to lead this into a diatribe about how I need to improve the situation at work first so it frees up enough time. But that is wrong! The foundational priority should come first, everything else should revolve around that.