Negotiation.

Sometimes when I type into this blog, I want the Doogie Howser song to play in the background. It's amazing how much NPH and that show actually predicted how people would live their lives. I'm confident NPH will coin many more things or instill many more behaviors in the future of society. We will call it pulling a NPH. Just wait, it'll be a thing.

In all seriousness, this is my first blog entry from the super amazing Bay Area. I seriously love being back here. The air is better, the burritos are better, and the commute is better. Of course, there are a handful of things that are missing. She is still in the city of angels, but that will hopefully be remedied soon.

I'm just hanging out at home, resting on what I would call a bed and my old phrase came to mind. Inspiration, aspiration, negotiation. For a while, this was my msn "message". I don't know why, but I felt like it was time to ditch the negotiation.

Have you ever had a dream that you achieved?

I'm not sure that I had this specific dream, but in this moment I feel really content and satisfied. I know in the past I've said that is a bad thing, but in this moment it doesn't feel that bed. If I continue to feel that way then there might be problems.

I actually think it's really rare to say you achieved your dream. I can't say any material change in my life recently has allowed me to make that claim, but when I think about it I feel like I did achieve my dream once in my life so far.

I haven't talked much about it in open, but when I was after a certain girl I kept getting blown off. But something in me said to keep with it. In the end of that short diatribe it worked out. I mean, it is still early to say how things will play out in the uber long run but I feel like a dream was achieved. I don't like the word achieved for this context, but I can't think of a better word.

So in that sense I feel very fortunate. Not everyone in life is able to fulfill their dreams. And even if only temporarily, at least I can say I did.

After coming back up I've been trying to catch up with friends and such. It's not been the most successful endeavor.

I don't know if it's just age and wisdom translating into clarity, but for once in my life I am worried about people. That's not to say I didn't care in the past, but I've traditionally had a laid back approach to other people's issue. I held the belief that God will take care of it and he has a plan. I mean, I hope I still believe that. But for some reason I feel compelled to try, or at least attempt some kind of action to mitigate the situation or at least give it a chance of getting better. I don't know what this is.

I definitely feel I've changed from who I was last time I was in the area. On top of that, I think I've changed from who I was in LA. So I guess it will be fun discovering who I am now in SF.