Smileage.

It's the day after my birthday. I was hungover as it started, and sleeping as it ended. All in all, a good birthday. A lot more contemplative that other birthdays, but I guess we all change.

A couple days ago I went to the dealership to get my oil changed. Yes, I go to the dealership. It was like a twenty minute drive because I specifically wanted to go to one dealership. I read reviews about them, and it seemed like the place to go. Even though it was out of the way, I didn't want to just go to some crappy place.

Anyways, when I roll up to the dealership I see the Volkswagen logo. I'm not sure why, but it just brought this general feeling of happiness. It was like being reunited with an on old friend. Kind of weird to fee that way about a dealership.

While waiting, I just listened to music, read random magazines, and sat in cars. Sitting in cars is so fun. It's the small things, but I really think the R32 looks so hot. It makes me want to trade my car in for one. But it's a hefty price tag. Then there's the Touareg. Maybe it was because of the Bourne movie or my sudden interest in Volkswagen as a manufacturer, but I want a Touareg. For some reason though, I would it would be cheaper. Those things run pretty high on the price tag.

So tomorrow will be one year since another big moment in my life. I say this with a sense of detachment and objectiveness that can only come with time. Even so, I still remember that feeling. It's like the worst feeling you could ever have. I never experienced it before, and so I guess it was a good experience. At least a first. I really hope I never have to experience that again.

I realize the best way to describe emotions is based on comparison. But that method is hard pressed to provide consistency. In that sense, it's useless as a method of description if description is meant to share.

I don't like to make a big deal of birthdays, or at least I pretend to be that way maybe. I can say that the single most happiest moment of this year was seeing Moon hold a cake. Besides the very endearing and sweet aspect of it, I saw something in her. Like I said, description fail. But I felt it was one of those moments you get to know someone on a deeper level, but nothing is actually said.