Relationships Y Amor.

So I guess I should write this before I never do. I got to thinking about relationships with people this weekend. Not like romantic relationships, but just all relationships. I have to admit, I think I am pretty fortunate. I've never cared about being popular and always being called out. I believe it is the quality of relationships that is more important than the quantity.

I think I am surrounded by really good people.

While this is not a complete list, it's what the weekend inspired. So I ended up crashing at Jin & Mary's place on Saturday night. Maybe I was too engulfed in my own misery to ever notice, but I got the feeling this weekend that they care a lot about my well being. It was actually pretty touching. Sometimes I forget that everything that happened not only crushed me, but I could see that it hurt a lot of other people too.

Then there is John. Nobody's perfect, and he is a classic example of that. Just kidding John. In all seriousness though, I know I have lots of flaws myself. To be truthful, I didn't particularly like him when I first met him. Not that I disliked him or anything. Just didn't feel like making an effort. Surprisingly, he seems like someone that genuinely cares about other people. Or at least people he doesn't hate. Maybe it has to do with being such a sensitive guy.

This weekend was also the first time I hung out Michael. He kind of reminds me of myself. Except maybe more financially responsible. Even so, he seems to be a remarkably generous guy. It's something rare these days.

So today was Easter. For the first time in a long while, I felt really challenged by what Pastor Joe had to say. It made me want to go surfing actually. But besides that, I felt like it is time for me to do what I know I should do. It's just that a huge part of me doesn't want to let go and admit I'm really that helpless. I'm getting there. I hope.

So about love. I found this site a couple years ago that vividly described what a crucification is like. As wonderful as love is, it is probably one of the most painful experiences. Think of your most painful love experience. It is absolutely nothing compared to what Jesus endured to show His love to you.