Proscrastinating.

Work is hard. Meeting expectations that make no sense sometimes it difficult.

I have a friend who will remain unnamed at this moment. I really respect her opinion and the way she thinks about life and things in general. Anyhow, the other night we were sitting outside talking. She said that if the chance ever arised, I should give Katherine and me another chance.

To be honest, I was a bit shocked she said this knowing what she's said before about second chances. It was an interesting conversation.

I'm sure everyone has heard by now about the shooting in Virginia. It kind of gets me upset thinking about it. I feel like I have to distance myself from the situation or I end up getting all worked up about it. My initial reaction was just shock. A lot of people compare this to 9/11, but to me it's not the same. Maybe it's me trying not to get upset over it, but I felt like 9/11 had a more profound impact on me.

Nonetheless, it's still such a sad situation. I've heard you can't try to understand illogical actions so I'm not trying hard to. But one thing I will say is that it was so selfish. If you don't like your life, then fine. Maybe those other thirty plus people had high hopes and aspirations for their lifes. Maybe their families struggled and toiled away to give that kid a chance in this world. What gives anyone the right to take that away from them?

I was talking to Ming about it yesterday. While I'm fortunate to live in an area with a high Asian American population, I can just imagine the backlash some others may experience. I hope it doesn't get to that point, but I have little faith given the track record of this country.

I also have a feeling people will start blaming video games. I mean, I understand the need to censor little kids from violent things. But I think any young adult or even teenager knows how to discern the difference between reality and a game.