I used to be the hugest fan of Gran Turismo. My favorite is probably Gran Turismo 2. It was the one where The Cardigans had the opening song. It is my favorite opening sequence in any racing game so far. To be honest though, I do not play that many racing games. I refuse to play a lot of them actually. Games like Need For Speed don't really appeal to me.
Anyways, I just thought of that because that song happen to pop up in my itunes. Not much has been going on these days. I am occupying the entire house by myself again. It's kind of nice, but at the same time a bit lonesome. I really enjoy the freedom to do whatever I want. But it's kind of eerie to come home to a completely empty house. I find myself talking to my turtle.
Speaking of which, I think that name Thea is out of the running. Right now it's between keeping the same name, Mock, or Dior. Yeah, random inspiration.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm living in a shadow. Of what exactly, I do not know. But sometimes I feel like I am. Part of me constantly feels like I cannot pave my own path. But I really want to be some sort of trail blazer. At least in my life. I don't care if I can't change the world, I would still try. But I feel like there is a shadow lingering over my shoulders these days. It's a really odd feeling.
Maybe I'm not being true to myself. Being who I am not really. But then that asks the existential question who am I really?
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