Back From The Heat.

So I am back in California after bearing the heat known as Arizona. All in all, it was a pretty awesome trip. I drank a little too much, not really by these days standards, and ate way too much. Now I have to live with the consequences of my eating. Back to starving myself.

As always, I don't feel like telling people what I did. If you care to know, ask me. No stalking my life and acting like you know what I do.

I will say I did a lot of thinking this past weekend. A really good friend once told me to just seek after what I want, what will make me happy in my life. If only things were that simple.

I think I've changed. I am always looking for those defining experiences in my life that will shape me to be who I want to be, or who I should be. I'm not sure if there was an experience that triggered this. But I find myself really not caring about the things I used to care about. I still enjoy the romanticism associated with my former image of my life, but I find myself not caring if it happens or not.

Does this mean I've come to the genuine realization that life is more than just about the pursuit of goods and wealth? I hope so. I hope it's not just a phase centered around purposelessness compounded by my initial resolution six months ago.