Smiles.

I think smiles go a long way. Even if people are just facing a bad day, they can't help but smile at a smile. So smile to everyone.

I was thinking about life. What else do I ever think about. It's always a mish mash of thoughts. My mom used to ask me, whenever I had a lot of one thing, if I was going to make soup out of them. Well, I think one day I will make soup out of my thoughts.

Today it's just a small cup of it. I was thinking about how unfair life is. I believe that people are a product of their enviornment, at least for the most part. It sucks so bad when people are given the short end of the stick in life. All for things out of their control. They had no say in how their families turned out, yet they have to live out the consequences of that. It's so unfair.

It gives me resolve to use my fortunate childhood to do better. I see Katherine, who really did not get the fair half of the burrito, but still manages to love people so much and care so deeply. Yet I cannot care for people nearly as much as she does. It makes me feel ashamed. I have no reason in my life to feel jaded, pissed off, or mad. Yet there have been times where I can't even get over a uber trivial obstacle. I mope about it like it's the end of the world.

Why?

Am I so self centered and blind that I can't realize how great I have it? I know I will end up doing it again probably, but I just pray that I have the strength to keep this realization part of my life.

I should get my laundry, but I have another thought. I always wondered why I never kept friendships. Sometimes it makes me sad, but I think I am one of those people. Or I was one of those people. Those people that just never does keep in touch with other and maintain friendships. I don't want to be like that anymore. Life is about experiences, and what are experiences that are not shared with friends.

Time to get my laundry.