15 June 2005

Shattered Dreams.

I was thinking about that song, Boulevard of Broken Dreams. My version would be like Highway of Obliverated Dreams or something.

Today was a long day, a lot of time to myself. Got to do a lot of thinking.

I think Katherine is so smart. She is seriously my hero.

I think my problem has been that I've always gotten things pretty easily. I never had to struggle, to work hard to achieve things in my life. I think that is why I failed terribly at Berkeley. For once, I was having to try hard and put effort into even doing decent. It took me a long to adjust to that concept. Maybe a bit too long, and I don't think I digested that fact enough before I graduated. At the first sign of struggle I'm so tempted to call it quits.

I had a similar experience on my first job ever in Singapore.

What follows is my profound thought for the day.

A loser loses, and a champion loses also. No one can win all the time, but what seperates these too? It's the attitude towards that loss. The loser leaves the field or arena bitter, complaining, without hope. Everything internally more discouraging. The champion walks away from a loss with his head down also, but he looks at it as an opportunity to improve. Figure out what went wrong.

I used to be a big loser. I remember walking away from things, mostly random tournaments super pissed. Never once did I try and figure out why I lost, and that is why I would go on to lose again.

Not this time. This is my life, and so I'm going to take control of it. Today was a bad day, but I can list a couple reasons why. And so I'm taking that with me the next time I go out.

Not literally, but yeah.

So yeah, I got to see two super clean RX-7's. There is a positive.

1 comment:

katism said...

update!!!